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    2014 - 12.01

    Hello friends,

    So I’ve got Big, HUGE, AMAZING, crazy news: In 2 days I’m moving to Australia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Ok, got that off my chest haha! So I will be very honest in this post and tell you a bit of what my life has been like and why you haven’t heard as much from me in the last couple years and tell you what’s happening in the near future. There are two main reasons that I haven’t focused as much on my own Kayla Williams music. I put no blame on anyone but myself because despite these things, I could have found the time to keep working hard on my originals and covers.

    1) I got involved with a musical/comedy project called The Dirrty Show. It’s me and my best friend writing songs about everything dirrty- mostly sexual topics. This may seem shocking to those of you who don’t know me but for anyone who has met me you’d know my mind is so far down in the gutter I don’t think it could find it’s ways out! We’ve pursued this project with much vigor, recording and producing an album ourselves to booking tours all over Canada from B.C to Toronto. We played shows almost every weekend of the last 2 years and have gained many contacts and fans along the way. I love it! I love to entertain and let me tell you, our band is entertaining, making people laugh is as addictive as making music and I’ve been doing both since I was young. So this was a huge time commitment, we spent so much time writing almost 50 original songs, playing, recording, booking, networking that I got lost in it. Again, I love doing it and we’re still pursuing it, but I wish I would have spent some more time on my music.

    2) I was in a long term relationship from the ages 17-25 and during this time I had a partner who helped me immensely with learning how to record my own music, make videos and help me in the terrifying and confusing world of technology haha! He had a bachelor in computer science and also went to college for music as the same time I did. Now, as it can happen, we grew apart. You change a lot from 17-25, I went from being a kid to an adult and despite the love there, it didn’t work out. Luckily, we remain good friends and he is still a supportive person in my life. I then got into another semi-long term relationship for the last 2 years. I won’t go into great detail but we just didn’t mesh. As much as I loved him and tried very hard to make it work, this past August I decided after much pain to call it quits but I also gained another friend. Now, again I put the blame on no one but myself, I got lost in love and forgot about my first love-music!

    Now here we are. Present day. For the last 3 months I found something- me and music! I feel like 17 yr old Kayla in ways, but with much more experience and knowledge about her. I rediscovered many songs I had wrote and half recorded for the last 2 years and also found a lot of inspiration to write again! So for the past month I hiked up my hard-ass working pants and recorded 14 songs- 12 originals and 2 covers. I’m calling it “14 in 14″- self explanatory I hope (even though we’re almost at 2015, these were all songs of the past yr mostly). So get ready YouTube I be uploading like a motha in the next 2 days! After that I’ll be on a plane headed to Australia where I’ll be living temporarily. Australia you ask? Yes that’s right and here’s a list of reasons why:

    -It’s fucking cold here! I live in Alberta, Canada and lemme tell you, minus 30 celsius is no way to live I’ve been dreaming of sunny California since I was a kid and while I’m not going there, it’s currently summer in Aus. (Almost) one year of my life without winter will soon be crossed off my bucket list!

    -As mentioned above, I’m in a comedy duo and everywhere we play people say “Go to Australia they will LOVE you down there, they are so filthy” and so we listened. We will play as much as we can and I am very curious and excited about the reception we’ll have there

    -The visa I got can only be attained from the ages 18-30. Now I’m no elder but I’m not getting younger and the time to do something like this is NOW or never-literally!

    - Now this is a very recent reason, I am currently single for the first time in a long time and I can think of nothing healthier for a late 20 something gal to do at this time, but go find out who she is with a crazy life changing adventure and good friends by her side.

    Travel isn’t something I’ve had the privilege of doing a lot of, but I worked hard so I can go on this trip. To live on the other side of the world and gain some perspective on life, meet brand new friends and play music is like a dream come true- I can’t wait to see where it takes us! So there you have it, my life in a nutshell. I hope you’ll listen to my new music and send me your comments, the support from everyone is always deeply appreciated. The thought of leaving and letting these songs just sit on my computer made me ill so out to the world you go little tunes- be gentle!
    (Here’s the playlist for all 14 songs: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLfq_RjFf-nzKlqwuA8UDKq_C9t9zUiNiq )

    See you on the other side!
    Ssmiley Ssmile

    (Here are 2 originals, “Better Leave” pretty much sums up this post)

    In The Rearview

    Better Leave

    Loud & Proud

    2014 - 09.30

    I happen to be LOUD. I happen to have a naturally loud speaking voice, loud singing voice and an even louder drunk voice. I also have almost no filter, I say what’s on my mind no matter how crude or brash it may be. These are things I’ve come to know about myself. I have always had a boat load of confidence, not really sure where it came from but I’ve always been myself and shown it off no matter the social situation. Having said this, it doesn’t mean I’m accepted without question-especially by men. I’ve struggled my whole life trying to embrace my weirdness knowing it’s not necessarily attractive to the opposite sex. I love that I’m not the typical girl who just giggles shyly and agrees with anything a boy says OR who spreads my legs like butter at every opportunity presented to me. I do the opposite. At halloween or costume parties I opt for the fat man with a beard over the bunny with her tits out. When I meet people for the first time I may over share and mention that I can’t go out for a coffee date cuz it makes me shit within minutes (True. Turns out coffee is a diuretic. Why does no one mention this?!)
    None of these are overly attractive qualities. So why must I continue to act in such a way?
    This is what I know. People on the surface are often not always who they fully are on the inside. I understand there is a time and place, at work of course you have to be professional. What I don’t understand is why most people put on their “social personality”, put on a polite smile and not show who they are in public.

    When I was dating my first boyfriend ever I pretended to LOVE Lord of the Rings, said I had read the books and it was my favorite even though I never had- just because it was HIS favorite.
    (It actually is one of my favorite books and hands down favorite movie series NOW but that’s besides the point).
    Why did I lie? I wanted him to like me. That’s a trivial example but in the past there are countless examples of where I changed parts of my personality so someone might like me more. I went through phases where I tried to be quiet and pretty. Calm and aloof. I did it because I thought it would make people like me more- not just men- everyone. I thought for a time if I could just change that part of my personality people would like me more. Problem was, I couldn’t do it! Every time I’m in a social situation, I like to talk. And talk. And talk. And be loud and tell ridiculously personal and funny anecdotes. It’s me. I’m an extrovert and I can’t hide it and frankly, I don’t want to. I could put on a facade and be someone else on the surface when I’m out and about but what good comes of it? I suppose temporarily not annoying people haha but when someone would get to know me they would realize that’s just not who I am. Maybe they would be surprised and unhappy to discover this extroverted side. Maybe they wouldn’t like my faux personality from the start and never take the time to get to know me better. I don’t know and I guess I’ll never know.

    I suppose my point is if we were all more ourselves around each other I feel we’d be happier and healthier for it.
    I’ve come to accept the fact that I’m crazy! Nut balls! Some people will never like me. That’s ok. Some people will love me. Even better.
    At least I’ll be me and from the get go and anyone who meets me will know the real me too.

    So when I stop writing this I’ll likely go play some music and sing really loud, then dance around my place a bit to some ridiculously way too pop music while I get ready, then I may go play with my dogs and make loud scream/yodeling noises so they howl with me LOL I know for a fact my neighbors can hear me. Know what? I don’t care!

    ~Ssmiley Ssmile!~ :D

    Odds & Ends

    2014 - 05.10

    May already. I have a hard time wrapping my head around how fast time moves and seems to get faster all the time. Summer is right around the corner, right on our fingertips but of course it feels like fall. I tell ya, Canada seems to have longer winters every year- I don’t know what happened to global warming. Tis a gorgeous day today though, even if it’s not hot out the sun sure makes the day.

    I have been working like a mad woman, have about 50 students and it’s almost the end of the teaching year so lots of prep work for their recital. We’ve also been working at planning a tour out to Toronoto/Montreal. It’s been far more challenging than expected but it will be completely worth it to play out there. Even if we only book a couple gigs we’ll hit up every open mic possible and get ourselves out there. Really looking forward to touring life again. I quite enjoy being on the road, not having any steady place to be but constantly experiencing new things. I love meeting people at shows and I can’t wait to see parts of our country that I’ve never been too- especially in July- bring on the hot heat and sweat and humidity, that’s where I thrive!

    It’s gonna be a summer full of music! After we get back from T.O we will play around home for a bit and then head to the interior of B.C again to play a few shows and even do a houseboat show! Touring is like a working vacation. It certainly doesn’t feel like work for me, performing is where I feel the greatest. Hauling equipment around and navigating is the work but it’s an adventure :)

    It will truly be a new chapter in my life as well as I’ll be technically ‘homeless’ this summer ha! Just won’t have a permanent residence to pay bills and call home for the first time in my life, but we won’t be home long enough to warrant needing that. Plus I have lots of friends (and parents) that I can crash with if need be. Life will be a bit unpredictable for me in this new chapter, no set plan just riding the wave. This for me is not normal. I went from being very young with a mortgage and a long term relationship to being ‘independent’ for the first time. Now it is kind of scary to not have some of these things that I’ve always had but I’m not scared. I know now that I’m smart enough to figure out whatever life throws my way and that everything tends to work out one way or another.

    Really what could be better than playing music and enjoying the sunshine? Sounds kinda perfect to me

    Ssmiley Ssmile :D

    Spring what? I live in Canada

    2014 - 03.28

    So it is officially Spring, although if you live in Canada you would never know it. Actually, a week or so before ‘actual’ spring it was gorgeous here (by our standards). We’re talking +6 Celsius, all the snow was pretty much melted off, I was feeling like a million bucks and then the first day of Spring hit, Mar. 20th. Of course we had a giant blizzard and it hasn’t stopped snowing since. HAHA, oh it’s almost laughable why I continue to live in such a ridiculous place! You probably don’t know me that well so you wouldn’t know how much I despise the cold and how much I feel I was not meant to be a Canadian (even though I love the health care and all the opportunities of this country has to offer- if only Canada had been in South America). I have been dreaming of the sun and living in it since I was a child. To this day one of my ‘bucket list’ goals is to live at least one year of my life without winter…we’ll see when this happens but it WILL happen! Enough about my unfortunate weather stories, let’s talk music.

    Yes it’s been a while since I’ve updated on my site, SORRY! I’m so busy it’s nuts. Last week was spent doing a mini tour to Calgary and Jasper (AB). Amazing experiences and we had such amazing shows! 400+ theatre and a bar that was so busy I could hardly get to the stage (ball to ball people in there), we sold a TON OF cd’S and got almost 100 new Facebook likes (which is pretty good for us). Of course I am referring to the comedy band that I play in and devote 50% of my life too, which is awesome, never had so much fun at shows. However, it leaves me lacking time for my own musical endeavors and when I finally have a spare moment, you can bet I’m writing my own music and recording when possible. Today I actually had some time (GLORY HALLELUJAH!)so I devoted my day to myself and my music.

    The song I’m posting on here is so new. Like today new, fresh outta this Kayla’s brain. I’ve actually written a ton of songs I just rarely have the time to record them. I so enjoy spending time recording, there’s something so methodic and therapeutic about taking a song you’ve written and producing an actual ‘song’ out of it. It’s hard to describe but I basically hear everything in my head when I write one chord progression or melody. It takes a lot of time to make it feel full but when I do take the time and record it (to the best of my abilities) I get an insane sense of accomplishment and fulfillment from it.

    So this song is called “June High”. Why you ask? Why do you say the words “let’s get high” in this song? Well I’m hardly talking about drugs. In my life I get high from so many things, namely music, summer and love. I get a literal high when I like a song, I’ll listen to it on repeat for a month, I get a high when the snow starts melting and I can feel the heat of the sun and I get a high when I feel love from another person. This is a song I imagine listening to on a long drive and feeling some kind of etheral, energetic, ‘everythings going my way and the future looks bright’ kind of day. Hope you like it- please give me some feedback, it’s been a long time since I’ve released something new (and this track is fresh, it’s a little baby and needs nurturing so any feedback is greatly appreciated!)

    Wishing your spring has more green than white-
    Ssmiley Ssmile

    It’s in my skin, it’s in me like energy
    It’s the sky in June, I feel it all around me
    It’s in the afternoon, it’s there everyday
    It’s under the moon, everywhere and you can’t escape

    We’re moving closer to the fire
    Come here come close and get higher
    Feel the music crawl into mind
    Come in come close let’s get high

    Let’s get, oh let’s high
    With your music, your music or mine
    Let’s get, oh let’s high
    Off of your music, your music or mine

    Love, Music, Love <3

    2014 - 02.14

    Valentines is upon is! This holiday essentially means not a whole lot to me- I believe if you love someone you should love them the whole year and not just a day- but I get the romantic gesture. I do love love :P

    The big event in my Valentines weekend is that I have 4 shows with a comedy troupe and I actually get to partake in some improv myself! I haven’t done it in quite some time and feel a bit rusty with only 5 rehearsals under my belt but it’s going to be a ton of fun! I’ve always loved improv, it’s so organic and amusing. Watching good improv makes it seem so effortless but in reality it’s quite challenging-to be instantly clever and funny (although I think I have a knack lol).

    I used to do musical theatre and some one act plays back in high school and actually debated pursuing drama instead of music when I was headed to college. Ultimately, music was my one true love and passion but drama takes a close second. I wish I had a bit more time, I would totally join the ‘B-Side’ improv team if I could but alas music is a full time job for me.

    Ah love, I do have a poster in my room that says ‘music is my first love’ and so true it is. Even in a relationship, music may actually come slightly higher. It’s my constant companion and I can’t imagine my life without music everyday. Hearing new music is like an unquenchable thirst, I can never get enough and I never tire of hearing the same song over and over…and over again! Then there’s the songs that stay with you always, the songs that just hit you on the first listen and you can’t shake that intense love for the music. For me, many of those songs come from the Beach Boys massive inventory- so many gems that never cease to amaze me.

    I do love love from a relationship to. I love the new feeling of being in love, I love comfortable love, I love passionate love and I love enduring and unconditional love. I’m lucky to have many people in my life who give me these types of love. What I’ve learned, and a lot over this past year, is self love. I’ve learned to spend time alone and enjoy it again and I’ve learned that there’s a lot about myself to love and to remind myself of that.

    To sum it all up- love is great so many forms! There are so many things in my life right now that I’m lucky enough to have and be doing and I have to say- I do love my life (in a completely humble way).

    To all of you out there, enjoy Valentines by yourself or with someone, have a great long family day weekend and do something nice for someone-or yourself!
    Ssmiley Ssmile :D

    A song about love that I happen to really love!

    2014 and times already flying!

    2014 - 02.03

    Hello friends. It’s 2014 and already February, just ridiculously hard to believe. Time keeps moving by so quickly and I’m so busy I can hardly remember to think.
    Already in 2014 I’ve had some really great and not so great moments. I’ve had a great long Christmas holiday with my family then the opportunity go to Mexico for my birthday. There was a lot of fun to be had, even went to the Mayan Ruins which was so amazing. Coming from Canada, any chance to get more warmth and sunshine is a blessing. We’ve had a particularly snowy winter (even for us) and it’s been tough for me since I despise the cold. I really hope to live at least one yr of my life without winter (hopefully next year!).


    I’ve already had a lot of fun with the people around me, I have such an amazing group of friends it’s not even funny. There’s a lot of music in my life which is great too, I’ve actually taken up learning to play the ukelele because guitar is just too hard for my little delicate fingers (ha!) and it’s been fun. I also bought a melodica to start playing at shows and it’s quite the entertaining instrument!


    Personally I’m learning time to myself isn’t as bad as I sometimes make it out to be. I’ve been spending time doing things for me- walking the dogs, making MY music, joining exercise classes, swimming, eating healthy, spending time with friends and family and trying stay positive about something everyday. I do feel this year will bring lots of adventures and good memories. I’m struggling slightly with some issues of the heart which everyone does at different times in their lives. I just hope to find peace and respect and not have any ‘drama’ in my life as much as possible. *sigh*

    I’m currently in the planning stages of a larger Canadian tour for this summer and I’m very excited about it. We’re also playing some really fun shows around my local scene and getting ready to record some new tunes. We’re jamming with a band for some of our shows as well which is a lot of fun! So there’s lots of excitement involved around that project.

    Anyway just thought I’d send an update about my new year so far. I hope yours is going just as smooth.

    Ssmiley Ssmile

    Christmas 2013

    2013 - 12.18


    Christmas 2013 already! Hard to believe, time really does start moving faster as you get older.
    I’ve been so busy that I haven’t really had time to think about Christmas or get in the spirit. Christmas is probably my favorite holiday too so I’m gonna need to sit down with some eggnog and Christmas lights and music or something to get into it :) Actually this year I’ll be spending Christmas in the mountains (of Alberta) which I’m very excited about. Should be the perfect setting to get that warm fuzzy feeling of the holidays, all the snow covered mountains and lights and cabins. I’m hoping to get to a hot springs which I have never done in the winter. I’d go skiing/snowboarding if I had any sense of balance, which sadly I don’t.

    As the years go by I care less and less about presents and more about spending time with my family. I luckily get the 2 weeks off because my students have it off, so I have some time to actually go home for a couple days and live like when I was a teenager (ha!), just eat and relax, talk, watch some shows, play some games, all that jazz. I then get some time with my friends for New Years and get some work done for 2014. Then bang, beginning of January is my birthday, another year gone. So lots happening this time of year. I’m hoping to hunker down and do a little writing/recording since I seem to have less and less time for it these days. I would also like to go tobogganing at some point, that’s probably the only winter activity I enjoy. I was seriously not meant for Canadian winters. The one thing I’d like as a ‘gift’ for myself is to go on a vacation :P I would also like to move outta this country for a while for next winter so we’ll see what happens, I feel great change and excitement in the air!

    Well I’m going to leave you with this video from my 2012 Christmas album. ‘Little Drummer boy’, I hope it helps you get into the spirit of Christmas!

    Ssmiley Ssmile :)

    I’m back- with multiple paragraphs!

    2013 - 11.23

    So if you’re here you may already know I am a musician, I love writing/recording music and I love the Beach Boys! It’s been a while since I started changing my website and I’m finally ready to update and intend to stay current.

    Let me tell you a bit about my life in the last year and about what I hope to see in my future. I’ve had a great time as a musician. I play in another band, which is a comedy/music duo and we’ve been gaining more momentum. I went on my first tour with this band and had the time of my life! We went through the province of B.C and saw the most gorgeous scenery- mountains, pure blue lakes, the ocean and lush greenery. Along the way we met some amazing people and lucked out by staying in some lovely accommodations. We got some great connections and made many folks laugh/feel uncomfortable- needless to say one of the most rewarding experiences I’ve had! We’ve played in bars, comedy clubs, theatres and festivals over the past couple years and have so many memories. We sit back many a moment and ponder on how we can get paid to have fun and be so ridiculous, truly my idea of living the (current) dream.

    In terms of other aspects of my life I’ve had a lot going on. I’m in my second year of teaching voice lessons, which has been such an experience. I’ve taught people of all ages and all skill levels. It’s sometimes trying but it has proven to be one of the most rewarding jobs I’ve had. I’m so grateful that I am able to have music be my entire income right now and that I can share music with so many people. I’ve had a lot of personal change and growth as well. It seems as I get a little older I’m learning more and more about myself and about relationships. I’m learning what I need and what I want out of life. It’s easy to lose ones focus from time to time-I’ve always been a person who goes ‘all in’ with almost everything in my life. Sometimes you stray off your path a bit to explore but hopefully you find your way back with more strength and wisdom than before. I’m taking time everyday to learn what it is I want out of this life and I’m happy I seem to be discovering more and more about how to stay on my path.

    Earlier I said current dream, why I say this is because I have dreams more grand then what I’m currently doing. I wouldn’t trade my experiences thus far but I can visualize so much more in the future. The band I play with has so much potential and I know great things are in our reach. At some point I hope I would be able to focus more on my own music, to the point that I can at least already have some people interested in what I’m doing enough to look into my own (non-comical) music. I have a passion to write, especially pop music and for some reason, slow, pretty melodies. I also love the recording process- hearing layers and layers of melodies and harmonies stack up into something huge and full and real. I would love to be in a bigger recording studio someday working with people who can teach me more about this process. Until then I will continue to work from my humble home studio :)

    I believe that there is so much in my life yet to unfold. I’ve had a couple great chapters already, filled with both good and bad but mostly of great experiences. I know there are more chapters yet to be and I know that it’s only going to be greater from here on out. In closing I’m a lucky girl- I have music, wonderful people around me, amazingly fun and rewarding jobs, two ADORABLE dogs (just sayin’) and a bright, strange and exciting future. Side note- I’m super into learning about planets/galaxies/space right now, weird right?

    Ssmiley Ssmile :D

    Brand new video-Baby Blue- Beach Boys- it’s beautiful.

    New Web Site

    2013 - 03.17

    Hi everyone, I’m in the middle of putting together a new website.  Check back soon and I should have things in order.